From my heart

2011-01-24T04:44:00.000-08:00

是时候放手了，无论是对那份友情还是那份爱情。。以前有的时候，我都不好好诊惜，以为一切都是理所当然的，现在时机过了，被人乘虚而入，我还能怎样？不忘掉都得忘掉。。人家说你的东西酱荣易被人抢走，是你自己的问题。。因为如果我当初做的好的话，就不会酱荣易被人拿走。。可是当我现在才来后悔时，有用吗？
一切都变得太迟了。。没用了。。而且现在他们的缘分越厚了。。他很会把握机会，再加上有天时地利人和，想不祝福他们都难。。

我发觉到我最近的胃口都变得比以前更差。。
可是我不可以再举续酱下去。。
今天想了又想发觉到的是，以前无轮么事，我越想的到的话，我越去追求，我越的不到，反我越是以平常心对待的事情，到最后就会自然的会得到。。
所以呢，看来我要一切随缘，不要再免强了。。

2011-01-24T04:20:00.000-08:00

最近的我真的事做什么事都不转心，最近都被他的事搞到情绪突然高潮图然低潮。我认，我是妒嫉，哪又整样？
。亥。。爱情真的是很伤人，更和况我的爱情重来时没有人何杰果的。。前几个月前我还对已各我以前学院的一个女子动情过，说来话长，打从2007年中开始就对他开始一点一点的动心，直到过后，那份情也随着时间而满满的约来越深，搞到直到当时要毕业了，还很怕我跟他的巨离越拉越远，当时还很怕过来了金宝读书而跟她断了联络。怎知现在的我却已对了另一个人动心。祚天我在kl做了个实验，就是特地约了他出来，要试一下我到底对她的爱还有没有像以前那么的深。。结果个我发现到的是我对他已经没有了像当初那么的爱了，以前对着她而感到的开心，紧张，害怕，完全没了。。就像很普通的鹏友蒋。。

但是就是酱我才越来越怕，因为这代表了我是对现在那个的爱越陷越深了。。而这次我吃醋的程度比以前我对别人的程度越来越深。。
不过这是每有节果的爱，无论如何，我都对自己说，我因该把他放弃。。不可再有认和希望，要望掉他。。不药再安慰自己，不药在找借口，不药再找理油，一切顺气自然。。
祝福我巴。。

yelling out !!

2009-10-23T10:37:00.001-07:00

october - i have been facing a lot of bad things in this month which made me dissapointed , sad and fear and angry ..
what really put me down is my final exam result ..damm .. the result was so poor that i had never ever get since in my 17 years of studies .Hits the lowest record since i was in kindergarden .not happy not happy not happy and also hate myself as why am i so stupid ...but wat can i do ?? ???????/??/just try to put more effort in this semester .

After coming bck from holidays , notice that almost everyone is quite far from me already .Last time situation is no longer exsit ..just feel like everyone attitude has been changed ...Haiz ,could somebody tell me what is happening now ??????

~SuSu ~

2009-07-23T01:27:00.000-07:00

shopping queen ,design expert , happy girl ,talkative and friendly - she is my friend Susu ..She is the friend that im so admire ...Politeness and friendly -always smiling ,gretting and say '' hai ''to everyone even the people she doesnot know . Besides, she is also a shopping Queen , called her shopping queen coz she is so interesting to go for shopping same with me ,like to buy sumting fashion ,wear pretty , neatly before go to skul . Like to go shopping everywhere-When we were studied at the college , we always went for shopping while also went to starbucks at Timesquare to enjoy our coffee after shopping .Shopping and shopping at sungai wang , timesquare ,KLCC, Pavilion and etc...When got break time in the class , v even also go to Watson downstairs the college to search for her cosmetic
She is the second pple that always went for shopping besides with
my coursin lee shan . Same with me , we also interesting to ''kepo, kepo'' sumting about pple ,talking fun and always go to her favourite restaurant -Oldtown Central Market to have lunch ....
This is about her -my friend Susu who is planning to go for Singapore to continue her degree .

My best coursin

2009-07-17T19:35:00.001-07:00

I would like also to thank to her for her care to me for the past two and half years when i was in KL .Since she is my best coursin coursin that i ever meet before .Kindess ,generous as always spend for me , caring but a little naughty who is never say no to me when I asked for her help .Took me went around the placeses, shopping ,enjoying ,eating(especially the expensive restaurent ),exploring new thinngs and even also never say tired to fetch me to her house almost every weekend .Haha ,,like to follow her go everywhere ...Sometime feel very touch that she help me a .A bit miss her when i leave KL .Since I know that I wouldnot have a chance to stay with her anymore ..the felling become more sad especially when i leave KL ...haiz ... why did I withdraw from the metropolitan college and come to kampar to study ?
Must remember her forever as she is the best coursin .. Hope u take care urself and wish u all the best ..

我-

2009-07-16T19:52:00.000-07:00

一个没有将来，一个对未来感到迷慌，一对为来没抱任何西望的人，不赶想未来我要怎么办，不感猜测，因为我不懂，也不想。。。。只想这背子好好过下去。。。不懂得表答，不会橙清，外冷内热，兼处事不圆猾－这就是我。。。。不会表答，不是我不想讲出，而是不懂要怎么开口，帮过我的人-我真的很感谢你门，其试，我真的很想向你们说声谢谢，告诉你们我很感急，好珍吸。。但往往就是开不了口，，处事不圆猾，往往都是我人生的败笔。。曾经，我想撤撤底底的改过我自几，但到最后，我还是选择了愿本的我。。因为我就是我改变不到...